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People come and go. Adalah sebuah frasa anonim klise yang maut. Efek gabungan kata tadi akan sangat bermakna jika yang mendengar atau yang mengatakan ada dalam posisi meninggalkan atau ditinggalkan. Ditinggal sepertinya lebih menyedihkan daripada meninggalkan. Tapi saya yakin mereka yang pergi merasakan kesedihan yang sama. Teman menurut saya adalah orang-orang yang dipilih Tuhan untuk melengkapi kehidupan seseorang. Betapapun gaul dan kerennya kita, kehadiran mereka pasti sangat kita harapkan. Begitu juga saya. Saya cuma manusia biasa dengan sensitifitas tinggi dan tingkat kegalauan di atas rata-rata. Saya berusaha menahan tangis ketika melepas kepulangan teman-teman ke tanah air. Rasanya baru semalam saya mengenal mereka. Rasanya baru semalam kami makan, tidur, nangis, tertawa dan melakukan hal bodoh bersama. Well, this is so cheesy actually, but, please. I'm in the mood of cheesy. Pertanyaan super yang mengundang air mata adalah : 'kapan bisa bertemu lagi?' mengin...

I should be writing on my assignment and thinking about my research proposal. But, no. I've started to read all those books and my mind is full. I can't even write one paragraph for the short essay. This is the second week of my post grad study, And I've already got like 5 assignments. The deadline is next month. But, next month? it's only like 2 weeks more. I actually can't fully concentrate on my assignment since my friends are coming here to attend the convocation. Yeah, I miss the girls and I feel useless if I don't spend my times with them. I know that when I'm out with them, assignments always on my mind. But I'm so glad meeting my friends, my girlfriends. There's no words to say about us. Recalling our (good and bad) old days together and sharing all the recent stories. Oh, thank God you sent them into my life. :) Oh, I really should back to those books. Seriously, this is tough. Please, God lead my way. Oyeah, I congratulate all my ...

So it's been almost five months. Hope I'll be a better person along the way I'm wearing this. Insya Allah.:) 

There are so much things I'd write if I want to write all happened before I'm here now. It was about 2 weeks ago I arrived here in Penang. Then I did the all that registration thingy, and then voila! I'm officially a postgraduate student.  I sometimes still can't believe that I'm here. It's all different. When I got my degree here, I don't even have any fear to face the class or people. I don't care what people would say after that. I was very independent and yes, selfish girl. But now I feel it's gonna be so challenging. I can't be what I used to be. That doesn't mean I have to be someone else, but I think I need to be more responsible with my self. I have to be more active to gain knowledge, to get to know people and of course, I do really need to read more and more.  So, how should I explain this? Yeah, I'm back to campus life. It's good to be back yet I know it's gonna be (very) tough. I know what I want. And I know I can...