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Saya hampir lupa pertama kali saya negblog. Kalau tidak salah, kelas 1 SMA. Ketika sedang browsing tak menentu, Maklum, waktu itu tahun 2004, lagi maruknya punya komputer sendiri di kamar dan koneksi internet- telkomnet instan. Saya merasa sangat keren karena bisa menulis hal-hal yang biasanya cuma saya tulis di notepad komputer. Tapi dulu masih belum punya teman, dunia blog masih sepi. Lalu saya melupakannya, sampai saya kelas 3 SMA. Sempat beberapa kali post entry tak berarti, lalau terlupakan lagi. Wah, dari awal memang tidak menunjukkan blogger sejati. -_- Lalu ngeblog di blogspot terlupakan sampai ada aplikasi blog di Friendster. Seingat saya, dulu kalau mau ngeblog di Friendster, umurnya harus 18 tahun. Maka, waktu saya berumur 18 tahun, yaitu tahun 2008 saya mulai suka ngeblog di Friendster. Namanya waktu itu A Perfectionist Dreamer . :)) Karena ingin lebih eksis, tidak lama saya pindah ke blogspot dengan nama yang sama. Lumayan aktif (tapi ya tetep, entry seputar kehidupa...

Okay, I'm stuck with these ASSignments. I don't what I should write anymore. Still hanging on page 1. #killme.  So I decided to answer (unimportant) quiz that I copied from my friend Dian's blog site . Been a long time not done this kind of quiz! :D How tall is the last person you kissed? eww. that was like a year ago. better not to remember it. hahaha. well, i think he's about 165cm When is/was your parents anniversary? 20 February. and my birthday is on 19. yeaah...I was always think that I'm a birthday present but now I think I'm a disaster. Do you really care if your TV is in HD or not? yeah. I have no time to watch. If you were offered to smoke some weed right now, would you accept? No. I'm stress but, no. I won't smoke. Coffee and chocolate are enough. :) What were you doing at midnight last night? I was sleeping. Yeah, I was too tired. Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing? I bought it in a shop at nearest mall form my camp...

So, what to say? or more specifically what to write? I'm still dealing with my postgrad world. I haven't thought that this is really hard. I was kind of miss reading books but now I'm about to vomit just to look at the cover. I know this is Saturday night. No, technically it's already Sunday. I should've going out with my friends, like I always do. But no, I'm sitting on my desk trying to finish these assignments. I feel so dumb looking at the essay I'm writing. I feel useless reading these books. I don't know what to write. I don't know where should I start. Everybody tells me that this is gonna be alright. Yeah, I know, this is just another day. But please I hate cliche advice. I really do. P.S : I'm starving! -_-

I do a lot of thinking lately. Well, actually not only lately, I'm thinking a lot since I was born. Hahaa. But for this matter, yes, lately. As my fourth week of being a postgrad student, I met new people with their opinions, and also old people, means people I used to know, and of course, with their own opinions. Every time conversation stuck into 'the life after university', the subjective and objective view got distracted. what will you do after your student life? what are you going to be after years of education? Will you work for people? will you start your own business? or you're going to back to school, pursue a highest level of study? or maybe, get married, start a family? Since everyone has their own view, I often see that some people can not accept the point of other people. I mean, like, what's wrong with working for people? and what's wrong with pursue the study? and is that a crime of getting married? I have friends that happy (financially o...

Geez! Entry dengan judul 'Rambling' mungkin akan terus berlanjut sampai saya menghabiskan masa studi 1,5 tahun ke depan. Kita lihat sampai nomor berapa postingan jenis ini. Hahaha Well, ini udah minggu ketiga kuliah dan saya masih harus berkutat dengan buku-buku tebal berisi teori dan metode penelitian komunikasi. Plus, tugas-tugas yang entah kenapa saya jadi bodoh membuatnya. Sepertinya dulu kalau buat tugas oke-oke aja. Mungkin saya makin bodoh? atau memang pelajarannya yang tingkat kesulitannya makin tinggi. So, I'm leaning toward the first, karena gak mau dibilang makin bodoh. *defencive mode: ON Sebenarnya saya happy dengan this so called student life. I enjoy reading and attending class, but, oh my God. Why is it so difficult to write the assignments?? Rasanya sulit sekali merangkai kata-kata. *lah, ini buat posting panjang-panjang apa hal?* I'm sorry for my kacau balau grammar and campur aduk language. Tinggal di negara ini memang memaksa saya untuk sedik...