Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Happy Birthday, Sister!

"An older sister is a friend and defender, a listener, conspirator, a counsellor and a sharer of delights. And sorrows too." - Pam Brown

photo session on birthday's night. :)

Happy birthday to my favorite sister in this world. May all your dreams come true, Kacidos. I love you. Kitto daijoubu, onee chan...*kisses*

Monday, January 9, 2012


Menyelip masuk ke relung
menggoda dengan sapaan tolol yang berarti
untuk apa datang jika harus pergi?
untuk apa hadir kalau setengah hati?


Kau adalah malam
bukan, mungkin kau siang
ah, tapi sepertinya kau fajar

maaf, aku terlalu suka senja.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

2011 Wasn't So Bad (Part 2)


Another Hari Raya Idul Fitri that I spent at home. We were so happy because my brother got his annual leave for several days. But I felt a bit sad because I have to go to Penang to start over life as a master student. So most of my September I spent with an adaptation and adjustment again. I felt so lonely at the first time and it was  quite hard to back to an academic life after like one year off. Yeah, back to crazy eating and sleeping schedules and do the things all by my self yet I'm so excited to back to school.

Also in this month my friends graduated and I attended their graduation party. Again, there always emotional moments when I have to see my friends leave for home and I don't know when I can see them again. *almostcryingwhentyping* (I posted about this last time).

Oyeah, Ayah visited me for a day on September. It was quite fun having such daughter-daddy time.:)

With Ayah at Cititel Hotel, Georgetown, Penang

Oh, no! don't ask these two months. That was extremely hectic times and almost make me crazy. Classes, assignments, presentations, and all those college thingy. I think my twitter timeline and some posts on this blog explained that.

So, this is some pictures how messy my room and desk. Please don't judge. :))

The most entertaining thing happened on this month was Zee Avi's concert. Ah, finally I can see her live performance. That was an epic concert! I went there with Hajar and we had so much fun. :)

With Hajar waiting for Zee's performance at Straits Quay Convention Hall :)

Zee Avi with her band. Such a great concert. Sorry for picture quality. I lost camera so now I can only take picture with my Balckberry. -_________-"

This was also still hectic time until almost the end of the month. I was still have to do my assignments and done two presentation which I thought not so good ones. Well I spent my NYE with my roommate at fast food restaurant while bringing our notes and assignments. Yeah. this December was tough but thank God I still can go out with some friends.


Well, as I recall and write this, I found that my 2011 was not as bad as I thought before. Now I see it clearly and differently. I realize that this year was tough and very confusing. But I was done many things. I could do what I couldn't do before, I learn something new and meet new people. I appreciated time and people surround more.

Briefly, I think lessons that I got from what happen in 2011 are:

  • don't rush things, everything has its time. 
  • things change and things have process, so do people.
  • no matter how bored and messy you are, there will always people who can make you happy and accept you just the way you are, either friends or family.
  • time is very precious thing. We can not go back to the past and we can rush to the future. The cliche 'live in the present' actually works. Yeah sometimes we just have to enjoy the times, good or bad.
  • no matter how great we create plan, God has always has better plans for each of us.
And now what will happen in this 2012? I don't know. I already have my plans for this year and I hope that I can accomplish each of them. But I still have to enjoy every single time, right?

So, Happy belated New Year, guys! Hope we all have an awesome year ahead.:) 

2011 Wasn't So Bad (Part 1)

Well it's already the third day of 2012 but I still want to enclose what happen last year. Say that I'm in new year's euphoria but I find it fun to just review what you have done in one year. 2011 was a tough year and I think it was a super duper 'galau' year. I have to write it 'galau' because the 'galau' word was like a trend last year and I hope it won't be this year. It brings negative energy sometimes. Haha.

So here I want to recall what I have gone through in 2011.

I began year of 2011 as an unemployment girl. I lived my life with bunch of DVDs and started to be addicted to Korean wave (especially drama and its soundtrack plus Korean indie music scene). This month was the beginning of my 'galau-ness'.

This is always be my favorite month, even as a jobless girl, and I passed last February as an 21-year-old-jobless-and-still-can-not-move-on-girl. Yet I got two surprise on my birthday. First was in the midnight from the house and another one was from my best girls (Karin, Nesty, Ermel and Mutia). Kak Rap and my cousins also came to my house and they bring along cute cakes. Oh, I was like not having cake or kind of breads for a week after that night. Anyway it was a great and sweet Saturday night. Thanks, everyone.:)

Pesta kaget!:D
Crazy photo session with the girls :*

This was quite dense month actually. I was still have no job but I got a call to take a writing test in one of economic newspaper in Medan. But it didn't work out maybe because I can't answer the last question that I clearly have no idea what the question means. Or maybe this is just not my way. Haha.

I went to Penang on this month to apply my Master's program and also attend my friends' graduation party. And again, this wasn't gone so well because I got chickenpox as I arrived there and my Mom asked me to go back. I wasn't even sent my application yet. So I spent almost two weeks of bed rest before going back to Penang and get the things done.

In the waiting of offer letter, I was still jobless, which makes me frustrated because I had nothing to do. I sent my CV to all company that I thought matched my qualifications. This is a flat month and I can't even remember any significant thing happen. Just passed like that.

Still, have no job but I had good times with my sister because unexpectedly she became an unemployment too. Hahha. We went to places in town with no money and feel like nothing happen. Well, we actually thought about our future and we went to some job fairs. And if I'm not mistaken, I started to learn Hangul on this month. Yes! Now I read that strange alphabet but I still can not understand the structure to make sentence. I hope I can learn more next time.:D

The most important thing in this month is we decided to wear 'hijab' which makes my Mom and Ayah extremely happy. Well, we hope that we can be better persons plus have better life after this. Insya Allah.

With Kacidos!:D

These two months was quite rough because I had to make some important decisions. My former colleagues offered me a job to handle the content of their new advertisement paper. I firstly doubt about it but in the end I took that considering my nothing-to-do-life. I worked only like one month (4 editions) but I got pretty much lessons when I was there and it is good I think. Thank you, guys.:)

Around these months, I got call for an interview at one of production house in Jakarta. They offered me a job as a scriptwriter but I turned it down because I think that wasn't a right time to go plus economical issue. I felt sad actually but I was just play cool and back to my daily life.

And I think it payed by the offer letter came from USM. I got accepted there as a master's students. Then I was prepared my self to go back to school. :)

This is the second Ramadhan I spent at home after my graduation. I was so happy because I can spend more time with my family since I had not much time when I was still taking my degree. I was so excited every time My Mom, Ayah, or sister asked me to do things because I'd be away for another years back to school so I just do what they want me to do. Hahaha. And in this month also I finally got my 'proper' driving license. :P

After Shalat Ied. 
to be continue ~